Ng Hui Jun
male,17
PJC,ODAC,06S20
bdae=27dec1989
cckps>kss>pjc
member of bB,O.I.C
crazy,slack,lame,???
the young and the hopeless, and the lonely.
a chocoholic,ice cream fanatic,pocky "craver",ipod maniac,emo/punk rock songs addict,thierry henry/alvaro recoba wannabe,the slightly not so of a tcher's pet,average guy wif a not so normal brain (my head's screwed)...ah the list goes on and on.
my ear candies...
good charlotte,green day,the all-american rejects,blink 182,simple plan,craig david,nickelback,etc.
STUDYING.school.chinese.nagging.
bastards.bitches/
sluts.retards.flirts.showoffs.ahbengs
man utd.chelsea.some tchers.war.
killing.rapists/molestors/murderers
(they deserve to be paid back tenfold).
bB`rK
bB`GeNe
O.I.C`cY
O.I.C`WyNer
O.I.C`SeaN
O.I.C`MinGhaO
O.I.C`DaNiaO
alViN
bRiAN
JiAwEi
AlinA
KayDa
MaiO SiA
SiEwHuaI
ShEiLa
EditH
ZhuQinG
PeArLy
RiChaRd
HuiTyiN
MuSiC~!
=DD
yepp life is back to normal. yepp, like songs say...
so sick - ne-yo
no more walking around, wif my head down. im so over being blue, crying over you.
straightjacket feeling - the all-american rejects
yesterday was hell but today im fine without you. brought away this time without you.
blah blah...you get my point. haha. ok so yah i'll post more happy stuff from now on. yepp gonna get a new blogskin! haha. ok la if im not lazy it will be real soon. otherwise...haha it'll take ages. hmm...days in j2 are so boring. nothing much to blog about so yah im gone. =DD cya folks.
4:00 AM
its been a few days after dat incident happened so im feeling much better now. at least i looked okay in school. i smiled, laughed and blah blah as usual. so yepp im back. =DD ok but i'll admit im still abit sad but nevertheless pretty much normal alrdy. so yah im fine right now. well, its chinese new year tmr and its never nice to be sad and sulky through a festive season so yah im ok now.
oh and abt her, im glad as long as we're still frens. and if she's happy, im contented. =) yah and im not going for anyone else in the near future i guess. maybe some eyecandies will do fine. heh. ok happy chinese new year guys.
7:13 AM
erm ok finally im feeling vocal again. its weird how during the lowest point of life, one feels like bursting out everything dat has happened. so rite now, i really want to burst out saying everything and anything dat has happened. and im not trying to wallow in self pity. juz gimme a few days and i'll be fine. until then, please tolerate me if i am very emo or something. thx. ok so here goes...
everything's juz plain wrong. its like this world doesnt have a place for a loser like me. at sch, my grades are failing. at home, i get scolded by my parents every now and then. but there's something even more heartwrenching.
ok today's valentine's day. so a few days ago, i started preparing some gifts for the very girl i like. i baked cookies, compiled a music cd, bought chocs when the ones i made failed terribly, and did some other stuff. so i called her up and asked if she was free and maybe if i could pass her the gifts i had for her. and blah blah and it turned out dat she didn't really want the gifts i made for her. erm its not dat she's cold or wadeva but she juz doesnt want to give me false hope and stuff. so yea, i was...heartbroken.
yesterday was the day i got to know of this. and i was shattered yesterday. i really hate myself for being so emotionally weak. whenever i think about it, i really feel heartbroken. its like i really feel like my heart's tearing apart or its being squeezed. i guess heartwrenching is a really an apt word to describe my feelings then. but its not her fault and i dun blame her, but i guess the sadness overwhelmed me. and yea...i broke down. into tears. i didnt really cry but tears juz came trickling down. this is the first time i tried but couldnt hold back my tears since god knows when. she said we can still be frens so yea i guess dats wad i can only do at this point in time. oh and if anyone of u know who i am talking about and if u actually know her, please do not tell her im sad or anything k? i dun wan her to feel guilty coz its not her fault.
and this very morning, i wasnt in a very good mood. i guess i walked around wif dat infamous black face of mine. so sorry if i offended anyone or anything. for the first 2 hrs of sch today, i barely spoke at all. i get all sad and emo whenever i remind myself of wad happened. but after sch, i decided to slowly try and not think about it. i tried playing soccer. it did help abit so i think im slighty better now. oh and about the cookies i made, i threw them away. i dun mean anything, i juz didnt want to get reminded of wad happened so yah...
im trying to slowly forget everything so give me some time. after dat, i'll be okay and back wif my usual self. until then, i'll be like dat so let me be.
5:48 AM
test
5:26 AM
